Once in a while it feels good to take a little hiatus from blogging, shooting and pretty much existing. Even if I’ve been active on Twitter, Instagram and a bit of Facebook, life has forced me to take things easy. Years of on and off depression, messed up sleep pattern, ridiculous work hours and serious emotional roller coaster will wear you out but, I’ve never thought it would be possible to feel as worn down as I did… as I sometimes still do.
I’ve refrained myself from publishing too many thoughts, beside a few blog posts on my official website, by fear judgments and to sound repetitive. I’ve realized that my heart wasn’t ready to write about anything as too many emotions were resurfacing with every hits on the keyboard.
It’s been hard, it still is… sometimes but, most of the time, at least now, I’m starting to feel at peace.
So here we are, in June 2018 and I’m feeling ready to hit this new direction for RebelMayhem.com. As you’ve been able to see, the site itself had a little makeover because nothing says “new beginnings” like a new site layout! You’ll also notice that a few sections have been trashed, other re-classified. No old posts have been removed and you can still access them from the Archive’s drop down menu, on the footer of the site but, I wont be promoting them on Rebel Mayhem twitter account anymore.
In what’s left of 2018, I’ll be concentrating my efforts in promoting and creating for ArielRebel.com which I recently took ownership of. This might sounds like a small thing but it’s been my dream since I started this online adventure in 2004. For many years, it was impossible for me to even discuss the possibility of owning my site but nothing beats perseverance and hard work.
During this transition phase, I’ve dabbled in erotic photography. It has given me a new boost of energy, a new spark inside my heart and a new love from my industry. With each new models that I’ve had the honour of working with, I fell more in love with the craft. Live subject photography has never been my thing but these last few months definitely changed something.
I’m looking forward to shoot more models and promote them on here because there’s so many cool people who deserve a little place under the spotlight. You can be expecting many samples of these shootings, some sexy behind the scenes and obviously a few wallpapers for your desktop and devices because… I just cant help myself.
All this mashed up with a lot of thoughts, blabbers and experiences about my time in the adult industry. This blog flew in all directions, over the years, and once again it’s time for a new beginning. Thank you for being here for the ride.
Sending you my warmest hug, thank you for reading <3
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June 13, 2018
Hola
Soy de México, soy fan desde hace mucho tiempo jaja te envío un enorme abrazo y muchos besos
June 15, 2018
Gracias!! *^_^*
June 13, 2018
That is exceptionally well said and true for many of us my dear Life is never easy and is constantly throwing us curveballs and it is our ability to live through the ups and downs that makes us stronger and the people we are. You are a remarkable woman with a diverse amount of various talents and it is an honor to know you.
June 15, 2018
Thank you Paul,
your comments hits right where it should. Big hugs to you as well, looking forward to read you again <3
June 14, 2018
Hello Miss,
it would be so rude to just read your blog and leave no response at all.
U understand that depression will eventually fall on all of us…sooner or later, more or less, but still I hate to read you have been consumed by depression…no matter how much I still don’t like to read it about you…but I understand these things are inevitable.
So about this subject, I can just cross fingers for you and wish you more luck and happy days in the future.
Sad truth these days is about the judgment from other people just as you are saying here on posted, debated over and over on Twitter.
It’s not nice, pleasant or even easy to read judgments from others, especially from people which they don’t know what they are talking about. I know one shouldn’t pay much attention to such people but still….it’s hurting a tiny bit everytime and after some time the tiny bit will fit into one big one.
So your decision to refrain yourself for some time from social media etc is completely understandable. I just hope you never forget about your friends when you are in need.
(Personally, I hope I could be there and do for you more as a friend and be with you more in contact than just on Twitter and at your side)
But I am glad that you are feeling better and have more and happier thoughts.
Congratulations once again to achieve your dream (to completely own and control your site ArielRebel.com)
And I would like to say my compliments to your artistic eye because your photos of other models are just…splendind.
Thank you for having me with you as your fan for the ride.
with Love
James.N
June 15, 2018
Always such a sweetheart James *^_^*
Thank you so much for taking the time to write so much.
Bug hugs, talk to you soon on the site 😛 xx
June 14, 2018
Sometimes in life you need to hit the reset button. I am glad to see that your are back and looking forward to new beginnings and a new directions. I noticed you were not blogging the past several months and was wondering what was going on. Now I know. Thank you for being so honest with us. If you need someone to chat with you know where to find me.
Also, congratulations on the taking over the ownership of ArielRebel.Com. I am sure it has involved alot of legal, technical, and emotional work and stress. I wish you all the best and success.
June 15, 2018
Thank you so much *^_^*
You’ve always been a interesting person to talk to, thank you for taking a minute to write me this.
June 25, 2018
Glad you’re taking direction in your life and have some ambition to work with. A healthy drive and work attitude will definitely get you places (not inferring that you haven’t made a name for yourself already) ! Be that as it may, is it correct to assume you’ll still live in Montreal as you’re promoting your official site aka currently? I only wish you the best in your future endeavors and what you continue to pursue.
Best wishes,
Nick
July 17, 2018
Thank you *^_^*
Yes, I’m back in Montreal for now but hoping to leave again in 2-3 years to warmer lands.